She

She’s so beautiful
Her laugh, priceless
Every inch of her body
Exceptional

Her lips,
Like little pillows
Her eyes,
The thing I love the most

She showed me a place
I’ve never been before
A place that’s now bright
And was dark and hidden before

She formed my future
If she wants or not
Showed me the way
I would’ve never gone without

She’s extraordinary,
She’s pretty,
She’s artistic,
She’s a girl,

She’s perfect.

For me.

written by Milena Hoffmann

The Struggle With Exams

or the struggle of art?

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As you may know I’m a student of Theater Studies and American Studies. We are just in the time of exams, fortunately it’s almost over. I realized in the last couple of weeks how much I struggle with coordinating writing or making art and studying. I’m a person that always does the things that need to be done first, then the things I want to do.

I realized that’s not always healthy.

As I only did reading and studying for university, I noticed that I became really sad and angry, very unsatisfied and felt very bad in general. I moved all stuff I want to do aside, and planned to do it after all my exams and term papers are done, as kind of reward myself and something I can work forward to. But as things happened I realized that that’s not the way that works for me. I had to do things I love during the stressful time too.

My problem is, I always feel bad when I do something for me instead of something that has to be done. I often catch myself by thinking about what I could have done that’s important, and how far I could be about that. But that’s not good, definitely not!

Now, I am at a point that I’m okay with it because

in my life I’m the most important person, college isn’t  more important, if I feel bad or stressed out I do what is good for me.

There are days when I really struggle with studying, there are a lot of days like that, but I always try to get back to earth, take a deep breath and take some time off.

In addition to that I really think too much. For example, today actually I planned to write on my term paper, till now I wrote nothing. I just feel too much today, my head cannot dive into the issue, it just doesn’t work and I feel too exhausted. But it’s okay! Artists are thinking about their art/projects every moment in LIFE.

The point is that that makes the struggle with exams even harder, because you have your passion project in mind and think about it all day, but you have to study at the same time. That makes it sometimes really difficult, because you cannot think about your to do’s. It’s better to take a day or a few hours off, work on your project and free your mind as farnas it is possible, and then go back to work.

When I do art, I mean painting or writing, I start to feel better. I cannot put that away as long as I’m done with all the stuff, it needs to be in my life at any time. And I see that as “work” too, as work in the way of doing something, not in the stressed way of having something to do. So it has to be in my everyday life, like college is.

 It doesn’t feel like work but it is.

What I want to say is:

Do art if you need to! It’s your work too (work to heal you), you come first in life so take some time off even if you are in exam time or any other stress time!

Milenaherz

‘My Girl’ a short film

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I’m happy to announce that my first short film ‘My Girl’ will be released in the course of  this year. It will be an independent film produced by myself. I will make my debut as director in this project.
We are now in pre-production, the script is written, there are just a few things to change, preparations are running. We will shoot in the course of the summer, the real film will be published around the end of 2017, in fall or winter. It will be available on youtube on  my channel a video will be coming up in the next weeks with further information especially about the content of the film.
The script is written by myself, I will direct the piece, and as it seems I will be part of the cast too. It is a really great opportunity to gain experiences in the industry.

At this time, I am searching for the perfect camera, fortunately I have a father who is very passionate about photography and knows several things about cameras. My decision will propably fall between the Canon EOS 700D or the Panasonic Lumix G6.
To have the best knowledge possible in my situation, I am attending an online course for directing by Adrian Mead, I love it. It’s so interesting and I learn so much things, it’s incredible. I can totally recommend it!
As I already wrote some screenplays, the script work is nothing new to me, and I know how things work. Honestly, the second script is already written, that means

there will be a part two coming up!

Thankfully, the story deals with a divisive topic, that is still difficult although it exists for long time. I hope it will give a better perspective and understanding on the subject for people who aren’t affected and aren’t able to get it without help.

I’m very proud of this project or this film, because it arose in and out of a very important time of my life, it mirrors experiences and feelings I had at that time and still have. It is dedicated to a very special person, who is very important for me and brought me to a place where I discovered a big part of myself, I wasn’t aware of before. Without that person this film wouldn’t exist. Sadly, this person doesn’t even know what influence she/he had, and how beautiful she/he is.

I’m proud to make this film all by myself. It will be or already is an incredible exciting journey, I don’t know where exactly it leads, but I know it’s for good. I’m happy to be part of such an adventure.

Let’s see where we land!

Be beautiful.

         Milena herz

Merken

Merken

My Girl

I never expected what happened the last months
You changed my life completely
Although you don’t know about my existence
but I know about yours

I never expected to fall in love like this
It is different
Sometimes I consider if I just pretend
But then I catch me feeling about you

I never expected that a person can change my life so rapidly
Without even being here
But change it for good
You formed in so much different ways

I never expected my life to change in every corner
But it happened
You made what I never thought could anyone do
Nothing is like before

You don’t know your impact in this world
In my world
You brought me closer to myself

You did so much in my life
In Me
Without even knowing

I want you to be happy

 

by Milena Hoffmann

 

Lean on me

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Logline:

An epic tale of unconditional love, the only thing that can save Kathie through the hardest time of her life when her whole family is dead and she has the choice between life and death, is Reyna, the only one keeping fighting for the right decision.

 

Synopsis:

Kathie is a screenwriter and painter, but in first place she’s a mom and a wife. She has a wonderful marriage with a man that truly loves her, she is his goddess. After the first child, Jamie, Kathie and her husband Braden move to Santa Monica, California. For Kathie it is the best decision ever made, she has now total access to the film industry. During a movie project Kathie gets to know Reyna, a popular and beautiful actress. But at that time, Reyna is at the worst point of her life, always being the most appreciated actress because of kindness, beauty and humor, she is now grumpy and serious, left by her husband. The worst of it, even her kids suffer from her madness. Somehow as Kathie appears Reyna runs through a change, she grows to a strong woman who starts to see the beauty of life again. After giving birth to her second child, Wyatt, the family luck of Kathie and Braden seems perfect, but there comes a point when Reyna gets the opportunity to get her own back on: The worst day of Kathie’s life emerges. While Reyna is on set, she gets the news that Kathie and her family had a car accident, Kathie is okay, everyone else not. Immediately there is no question, she joins Kathie in that difficult time. She stays with her in the hospital, while one by one dies. Although they do not know for long time she takes Kathie home with her. Kathie runs through all stages of grief that challenge the people around her, but that is no reason for Reyna to stay away, she stays by her side. there is a time when Kathie is not on her mind, she transforms into a bad and evil person, scary. She begins searching for someone guilty. She works up plans of revenge. But there is another part of guilt she discovers by herself. Whereas she jostles all people, wanting to help her, away, Reyna keeps trying. She stays patient with her guest, or better, her friend, she gives Kathie the glorious gift of being a family member, not out of pity but out of love. Somehow Reyna gets to improve Kathie’s mind-wellbeing, she starts painting again. It seems fine but deep inside Kathie feels that painting and a “new” family cannot cover up the bruises of a heart, she felt unconditional love for her husband, her daughter and her son, but they are not existing anymore. She has no clue how to handle the situation, she sees no way out, no way to live the rest of her life in peace without them. The situation and feelings are overwhelming, no one there who understands her. As everything is too much she cracks up, she runs away. Reyna does not notice the disappearance for hours, as she does, she follows and starts searching. She keeps her promise of joining Kathie, the incident opens their eyes to professional help. The way to a better life. They figure things out and get a handle on the situation. After Kathie recovered in some degree, she begins to write again. She turns back to a woman, independent, strong and passionate, just possible because of Reyna’s dedication. She backs her in her hardest time, cared for her, and she were the only one Kathie let to. Both feel a sense of a special bond, they are soulmates. As Kathie gets better and seems to move out again, Reyna’s children develop plans to leave. They already noticed the connection of these two hearts and solve their problem of facing their mum sitting alone at home, Kathie must move in. They deepen this connection, no one is alone, not even living alone. The relationship of Reyna and Kathie gets deeper, all the sadness turned into happiness and fun. They saw each other in their hardest time of life but they are still there, by their side. They believe in each other when everyone else would disappear, they have a shoulder for each other if anything is bothering, they love each other, truly.

Merken

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